Under the same sun

French, German, English, Indian( throw in a few languages there), African, European… the list goes longer and I’m limited by my ability to spot the subtle differences in ethnicity of the world. London , to me, is a wonderful city of sights , sounds, people and life. Commuting in the city is a big part of the life here. It is through such mundane , sober daily toils of a journey, where I’ve come to realize the simplicity of context of my existence. We are, more or less, same under the same sun.

The day started early. I had to find my way to a place where I’ve not travelled before. A friend had called in a favour and I felt obliged to help. This commute took me places. A walk, a bus ride, an over ground rail , an underground tube, a bright sun in the sky, a Friday to appreciate the little things of life, a cup of coffee in hand, a soul that felt rejuvenated from the experience.

I do like to view myself as an observer. I enjoy the state of feeling insignificant in a world filled with people. People who mind their own business, carry out their set of chores , connected and yet disconnected from the world around. This morning was special indeed. A little girl, probably around 4-5 years of age. Could be younger than that. She was a little talkative lady. Innocence had a voice. Beauty had a form. Angels had a face. It was all evident in the little one. She spoke her magic words, she smiled her lovely smile, her mother tried to wash her hands using a mild alcohol rub and the little one played along by not bothering to put up any resistance.

It was a warm fuzzy experience , watching her rub her hands and talk to her mum in a language of her own making. Words spoken. Words that conveyed sincere meanings. Words that needed no translation to transcend the human made boundaries of comprehension or bias. I found myself lost in the moment of sheer bliss. I stood watching the mother and daughter go about their business.

The mother spoke in cuddly cooish French. Ca – Va was all I could comprehend. Ca va , the child acknowledged.

I couldn’t help but reminisce over the nieces and nephews that I’ve had the pleasure of building conversations with. The words have always been similar, the enthusiasm has always been similar, the arguments have always been cute and pointless. There was a sense of familiarity to the whole episode. The angel in that one kid was the ever present angel that I got to see in all the kids that I’ve ever seen.

My undivided attention was soon divided. German this time around. Another mum, another infant. This one was a lot younger than the French little lady. Talkative too. I was surrounded by innocence. I felt relaxed in such a company. The writer in me, the deluded voice in my head , found this to be sigh from the universe that would stand to remind me to embrace the truth. We had the capacity to remain innocent. We all do have the capacity to resist that erosion of moral fibre. We have it in us to remain brave, grounded in principles, surrounded by goodness. Yeah, the writer in me wanted that, Desperately.

The months where I’ve lived in this wonderful city, I’ve seen many cultures. I’ve observed many good people who earn an honest day’s living. The kind of goodness that defies the world plagued by fear. The kind of goodness that reminds all of us the meaning of being human. Mind your business, help those who are in need to be helped, spread the joy through smiles. Face life as it comes. I’d very much like to believe in that version of life.

I’ve also seen violence. Interestingly, in stark comparison to events, it’s not the abundance of violence that overwhelms me. It’s the abundance of love, care and staying human that overshadows the sceptical world of my making. For every act of impolite rudeness, there are ten more that bestow kindness. For every act of deception, there are ten more that remind me the value of honesty. For every sin against the fabric of human, I see a hundred more that sing the gospel of how wonderful it is to be a human.

We are divided by borders, we are divided by beliefs and belief system. There are gods, there are big data data centres, there are folks who believe in either options as the one that would take us to sublime salvation. There is hate and there is love. These two are not engaged in an eternal conflict. Ironically, they both exist. They both are in place and they do leave us with the choice to rest our faith in either of them.

As far as the day is concerned, I feel happy knowing that we are born innocent, we are nurtured to the way we are. Which also implies that common sense dictates that , we as a species, are quite capable of staying human. Kids are a wonderful example of how one stays immune to the pollution that corrupts the fabric of staying a human. It would be childish to say that we can learn a lot from the kids. It would be unwise to discount the simpler truth that kids do lead a simpler , easier life. Not because they have nothing else to do, or strings that don’t mandate their motives. It’s because they have a simpler understanding of the world around. They do what they have to, they learn, adapt and are yet to see the world through filters of bias , fears, insecurities and prejudice.

I think it’s not a stretch to assume that there would come a day, where we’d feel saturated by pointlessness to ideologies of faith, text, cultures that don’t hold water given the context of life. I’d be more than happy should that happen in my lifetime. But it’s coming . It’s inevitable. It’s not a question of if, it’s a question of when.

The innocence is proof enough that the future is safe. After all, aren’t we all the same under the same sun!

Karthik

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Concentrated and yet diluted

Ah the good old days. I usually restrict the past to the previous decade. It’s been a fun decade. The move from being a kid to a responsible adult (Ahem!!! that’s a little contentious at best) , the bifurcation of life into personal and professional, the tryst with music ; instant love, instant karma, divorce and reunion and the whole nine yards around it, the journey into words. I think it’s fair enough to say that the decade has been quite a jolly ride.

This blog ain’t about that. This one takes me back to the simpler times. With the Independence day, also comes the months of bailing out on classes under the pretext of drama practice, the marching thingy, events and eventualities surrounding the big gig. Life was fun. It was a point in time when I soared through life without many thoughts. I think it was during the time when I didn’t get to think much. I kept things at a bare minimum, thinking that is.

Back to school. The months leading up to the big day were always fun. There were planners. Bless their soul, the natural leaders, they’d always have a plan. They knew exactly what was needed. They’d meticulously jot the events out, time them, arrange for the logistics. There were the dancers. The gang that danced. They’d be locked away into rooms, popular trance and dance numbers would blare through the handy portable 2-in-1’s. ‘Firestarter’, ‘MI-theme’, a bit of Enigma, and a lot of songs that I didn’t even know who composed. The dancers were a tribe of their own. Far away from the brotherhood of the studious ones, they had realized their purpose of existence. They’d dance. That’s all they cared for. Theirs , was a life of pursuit of putting up a good show, getting a recognition. They seemed to be lost in their own world.

Then there were the singers. Oh, I envied the entire lot. I could sing, yup I could. I never made the cut. I was never the soloist that I always yearned. Truth be told, I was a small fry. Good enough to win when the serious singers wouldn’t bother participating. I didn’t stand a chance , back in the day. The disappointment did fuel my passion for the stage. I’d take the mic. Hell I would. I’d not sing though. I’d speak. And Spoke I did. I found the laurels that had evaded me in my quest for being a singer. Vengeance and retribution were served cold, that one eventful fete where the music team had categorically failed and I returned home with cups and a rolling shield. It feels petty now. But, yeah I had my moment of glory.

Damn, got side tracked. So, the singers would huddle. They’d quickly distribute the songs amongst themselves. The usual girl would sing the devotional song. If I remember her right, predictable and to a teen back in the day, that was uncool. Decked in conservative garb, flowers that adorned her hair, she was the girl that represented holy purity. Nobody hit on her, nobody would flirt with her, In fact, I’d refrain from trying to pull her leg. She was always revered as something precious 🙂

Then came the ARR wannabe singers. The popular numbers would be picked. Folks would practice. I was there. Waiting to swoop in and make fun. I enjoyed being an outsider to the gang. I wasn’t a misfit to music. I’d pick up drums, I’d pick tambourine. I was the unskilled labour of that group. It was always exciting to be around the music folks.

Then came my forte. The ask was always to present a sensible Drama(play). I was the chosen one. The responsibilities of the dialogue would land on my shoulders. It was good fun. The spirit of collaboration soared high. I remember the first few weeks of the preparation. I’d have a vague idea of an idea that I thought was funny. We’d talk about it, try to breathe characters to it. It was always an organic discussion. It bloody well was an excuse to invite the girl that I had a crush on, to act out a part. The hush hush giggles, being rampantly teased, trying a lame means to explain the laughs to the otherwise clueless one(oh everybody knew), it was all good fun. The icing on the cake was the fact that the teachers would have a face-palm moment when they finally witnessed the play. Yeah, I’ve always been sneaky and deceptive.

That’s the fondest memory I have of the Independence day. As time wore on, I found myself moving away from feeling the zeal and frenzy to the day. The craziness nipped, the day was now a welcome holiday, meant to be sat at home glued to the silly idiot box. My mom would make a sweet, she’d always tell me about my paternal grandma, who through near poverty, would still manage to make sweets to celebrate the day. The story had grown numb to me. I couldn’t bring myself to associate personally to my granma’s ordeal.

And in due time, the cycle had come full circle. I found myself swaying away from being cool, uncool, to pragmatic. I do love my nation. I respect the effort and sacrifice and blood that’s gone into building our nation to what it is today. I recognize that we , as a nation, have a way to go. I also acknowledge that we, as a nation, should be happy ;satisfied; and for lack of better word, proud of what we’ve achieved so far. All of that’s there.

And so today, as I reflect on what the day means to me, I did make it a point to buy a jar of gulab jamun. I do intend to share the sweet joy of us being an Independent nation, a young adolescent who can achieve all the greatness if she puts her mind to it. On that note, Happy Independence day. It means different things to a lot of us. None of that disparity matters. Smiles all the way.

Karthik